We got the final approval from her country and are able to proceed. In less than one month we will be in-country doing legal paperwork. Anxiety, fear, excitement, and straight-up panic are all mixed together here. I was up at 4AM unable to sleep. At 5AM I gave up and went downstairs to work. I checked in on the girls on my way down, and as soon as I walked in, M looked at me, fully alert herself.
Reminder: Whatever fears, anxieties, and panic we may feel, hers can only be more extreme. Hurt kids and kids from hard places: the only thing harder than parenting them is being them (h/t Christine Moers). It's not about me, or us. It's about family and healing and forever. Deeeeeep breaths.